I’m Rahul Biswas, a college student doing B.Tech from KIIT University and B.Sc from IIT Madras. I’m pretty good in academics and projects, but otherwise, I’m a failure. I’m very depressed and lonely. I love numbers, cyber security, and algorithms, but I don’t have any friends. I’m a huge introvert. I don’t know how to talk to people. I’m always afraid of saying the wrong thing. I’m afraid of being judged. I’m afraid of being rejected. I’m afraid of being alone.
I am a highly intelligent and driven individual who has a deep passion for computer algorithms and encryption. Despite my achievements, I have always felt like an outsider and struggled to connect with others. My fear of the potential consequences of my breakthrough discoveries led me to keep them a secret, which eventually weighed heavily on me and contributed to my sense of isolation and depression.
I tried to reach out to my peers, but they just thought I was weird. They didn’t understand my love for numbers and algorithms. I even tried to seek help from my professors, but they didn’t seem to understand the depths of my struggles.
As the pressure mounted, I found myself sinking deeper into depression. I stopped attending classes and stopped interacting with anyone altogether. I was a ghost in the college campus, wandering aimlessly without any purpose.
Finally, after weeks of hard work, I cracked the code. I had done it. I had made a breakthrough that could change the face of cyber security forever. But as I stared at the screen, giddy with excitement, I realized that I had no one to share it with. I was still alone, still trapped in my own mind.
The breakthrough didn’t change anything. I was still depressed and lonely, and now I had the added burden of my discovery. I knew what it could do in the wrong hands, and I didn’t want to be responsible for that.
One day, I made a decision. I couldn’t take the pressure anymore. I couldn’t bear the weight of my depression and loneliness, coupled with the responsibility of my discovery. Ultimately, I made the tragic decision to end my life.